Hello lovely peoples~ Yeah. I know; last time I updated was xxx zillion years ago. *cough* ANYWAYS!

I've long started on my 3rd year, and so far it's been going pretty well. I have the loveliest roommate in the world (she's also a BFF, ) and so far dorm life has been the most amazing part of this year. If you check my gallery, I've gone and done the popular room meme, so go on a take a look! ^_^

School+Arts life is a lot busier this year, and being a cellist is a much more stressful and demanding. I'm just trying balance out my secret Otaku life with being a high school arts student (with AP academic classes, no less), and still trying to stay on the Dean's List. So far, so good.

As for the more colorful parts of my life (hint: anime, drawing, internetz!), I've found myself even more of a fanatic than ever. I used to think that being into Japanese culture and anime/manga was only a phase that I'd go through, but I was wrong; my passion for it has just gotten stronger. So much that it mentally hurts me when school leaves me little time to indulge. :_; Sadface. Hm...what should I say? Sometimes I wish I could grow up faster and get through with college so that' I'd be able to lead an independent life with ample time for me to do what I love. But I guess it's never that easy; I'm not willing to sacrifice my education or disappoint my parents. Sometimes I look at people who really lead the life that they love, surrounded by people that they love, and I wish I could be them. *dramatic sigh* It all takes time, I guess.

2 years ago when I first came to America and entered an arts academy/high school, I was still 15. Now when I look back, I can see that even in the short period of 2 years I've matured and grown so much physically and emotionally. It's a good change, and gave me the opportunity to meet so many beautiful and true friends and discover myself in the process. Those who have known me before I came here should know; I may still be the same person, but I've changed in terms of how I act and think. But change doesn't necessarily mean leaving things behind; I still love everyone as much, if not even more, because distance has taught me to treasure the people I lose touch with.

Coming to the US after 15 years of life and education in Asia has been a grueling challenge for me, but now that I'm more than used to life here, I really have to express my gratitude. It broadened my mindset so much and allowed me to a much more emotional and sensitive person, while teaching me to have fun and really let loose sometimes. Also, living in a dorm and having to be completely independent all of a sudden has taught me how to be in control of what I do, and how I do it. It's also a heavy responsibility, because now I know that all my actions directly influence the result; my parents are in another continent and I can no longer rely on them to set everything right. But at the same time, hey, you get to establish your own way of life and its wonderful.

A sorts of shit happens in a dorm full of teenagers, the drama is just overwhelming sometimes. When that happens you can do 2 things; you can choose to be swept up in it, or even initiate it, or you can take a step back and calmly use the opportunity to observe others who are causing the drama. I've always done the latter, and after awhile you start to see patterns. To put it blatantly and simply; it's just kids fighting over disagreements. Yet over such a painfully trivial thing, friendships get broken, hearts get broken, sometimes people are completely broken and destroyed. Is it really worth it? After awhile you find yourself laughing at the absurdity of it all. If you learn from these experiences, you slowly start to learn how to fix or prevent these things. We all have tempers, but not all of us can control the childish part of our tempers that pop up sometimes. And most often than not, disputes are worsened by pride. Because nobody wants to take a step back, problems are never fixed. People let pride drive them into cowardice, and they are afraid to admit they were wrong. Think about it; is it really that hard to just let it go sometimes? ^_^ Just my two cents; take it or leave it.
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*stretch* Well! That was a long...passage. On a lighter side, due to my lack of time to draw anything decent, I'll be uploading more photos. My gallery has been dead for a long time. Mostly just of me, haha. A friend and I are both turning 18 next year, and guess what we're planning on going to ! Dun dun dun...YAOI CON 2010!!! YEAHHHH!!!! (>3< We're really hoping the date (which hasn't been announced..has it?) doesn't interfere with school. I've been wanting to officially get into cosplay for a long time, but haven't had the time to really do something decent. So I've just been checking out cosplay groups and stuff. But yeah, I only have 3 conventions under my belt and they all pretty tame. I want to go to a really hardcore one with raves and shit.

So yeah...talk to me, guys. Anything troubling you, I'll be able to offer a few words of wisdom that hopefully will be of help. It really breaks me to see you guys having spats, cos I'm so far away and therefore cannot physically be there. If you don't wanna discuss it here, drop me a note. Cos trust me, I KNOW that shits going down and nobody has told me. *wink* And don't give me "it does not concern you", cos that's bullshit. *smile* I love you guys.